March 28, 2016
Do you want the truth or do you want a lie? Sometimes we don’t want to hear the whole truthful advice about something we are going to do anyway. If we’re driven, we’re driven.
We learn as we grow what drives us and if we should listen to that voice.
I listened to the voice I believed was right when I decided to Indie publish my first novel. Here are the ups and downs of that decision.
Up: I’m my own boss. I own it. I had/have total creative freedom with content and cover.
Down: I’m inexperienced at all the details I needed to know in order to do this right.
Up: I have not only accomplished a great thing by completing a novel, I added another accomplishment to my list by publishing it myself. It is a good feeling.
Down: I’m tired, I’m scared, I’m uncertain that it will sell, and I don’t have a publisher to call to solicit encouragement.
Up: I can schedule my writing/publishing aspirations at my own speed and intensity.
Down: I do better with concrete deadlines – ones that someone else imposes.
Up: I have learned more in 6 months than I thought I ever could.
I’ll not end with a down….
Should I do it again? Will I do it again? Probably. Here’s why.
I have given in to the doubt, the fears, the disappointments, and the realities of self-publishing. But the bottom line for me is I’m NOT in control. I am not the gatekeeper of my writing and publishing career, whether traditionally or independently published. God is.
What will I do in light of all my doubts and fears that my first book will never sell more than 100 copies? I will write another one.
Will I Indie publish the next one too, even if the first one fails? Unless I have a publisher knocking down my door, I will. Do I think my original voice was right? Yes. Not because of how I feel , but because of what I know.
It’s easy, my friends, to get paralyzed by facts and figures. It’s common for us to be swayed by them. I am in the “do you trust Me?” phase of this adventure. I must seek glory for Him, not myself.
God is asking me if I trust Him. The only way I know to answer is to keep going with the plan, His plan.
Looking ahead and not getting stuck in the “what if I was wrong” quicksand is my goal for the coming months.
How are you doing with your plan, whatever it is? Are you doubting, fearing, thinking you need to run home and hide under the bed? Don’t do it. Just do the next thing. Go forward and…